Here are parts of the songs that have been playing in my head lately...insight into my head and what has been going on:

1) Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
     Somewhere along in the bitterness
     And I would have stayed up with you all night
     Had I known how to save a life

     How to save a life
     How to save a life

     Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
     Somewhere along in the bitterness
     And I would have stayed up with you all night
     Had I known how to save a life

2)  If I lay here
     If I just lay here
     Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

     I don't quite know
     How to say
     How I feel

     Those three words
     Are said too much
     But not enough

     If I lay here
     If I just lay here
     Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

      Forget what we're told
     Before we get too old
     Show me a garden that's bursting into life

     Let's waste time
     Chasing cars
     Around our heads

     I need your grace
     To remind me
     To find my own

3)  And the last one unfortunately I do not know the title of and therefore could not find the lyrics, but it talks about shining brightly for Jesus.  God has been teaching me so much lately...it has been tough, but I prefer to struggle with Him than to glide through life away from Him (for away from Him I would truly be enslaved).

Wow...these past few weeks have been a lot of firsts....craziness.

• first day of school
• first apartment
• first job...well first one I applied and interviewed for (although technically I had about 4 diff offers this week from all the places I applied to)

God has been so amazing!  All these firsts have followed some of the hardest days ever...but He has really shown how much He loves me.

What a way to kick off junior year!!  The school year has yet to start but I already know it is going to be A-mazing to the max.  A little midnight escapade and cop chase (okay maybe not cop chase but a close call).  It was awesome.

Then some pratical joke panic ensues...ahhh, craziness. 

The motto of this year: Doing it BIG!!  There is no other way.

My friends and I have a contagious enthusiasm for this next year...can you feel the anticipation in the air...there is something amazing waiting just around the corner

On a sidenote...changing my life...well not drastically.  I am cutting back...Go me!  I have come to realize that I am an overachiever aka person with chronic masochism (A willingness or tendency to subject oneself to unpleasant or trying experiences)...so I am cutting back and letting loose.  No longer a double major I am dropping to just one.  But that doesn't mean I am going to slack off.  Not in the least...I am going to kick my classes in the butt.

Oh and I have a plan B for my life...which is super exciting...at least I think so   Of course plan A is way way above plan B, but should it fail then plan B is not a bad alternative.

So I was made aware of my very fist nickname the other day (besides the many variations on my first name that my friends yell out at me in order to get my attention).

"Natural High"...there is a story of course to that one...but one much better told in person rather than read on an online journal.

So after being informed that I had way overbooked myself for the next school semester...I am cutting way back...well sorta...for me I am.  Instead of attempting to do enough activities for 2.5 people I am trying to cut it down to just 1 person's job. 

Last random note for this entry...it really sucks to listen to an upset friend over the phone, who lives in a different state or different country...cause you know that you can't even give them a hug or grab a box of tissues.  But I am learning to surrender that.  I will do all I can do from my end, be thankful that they called me, and trust that they will make it through all right.  Ahhh....I love my friends so much....I think I have written that a ton of times...but I keep realizing it over and over again in new ways.

So my summer boiled down into two words:  driving and cleaning

Driving: multiple trips to UTA, road trips, random drives to destress, going out...driving principles home to my heart

Cleaning: up my act , out my heart, purification and refining...oh and an insane cleaning of my closet which took up my entire Sunday...emphasis on insane

Oh and this past weekend was amazing...going out, two concerts...and lots of chill time...yeah!!